Post by abibenitez on Nov 15, 2017 2:16:35 GMT
Hello ya'll,
So we won the challenge last round which was no thanks to me. I honestly flopped so hard but I don't think I would've went home because of it. Anyway, Chris ended up leaving which kinda sucked because we lost a gay but it's fine.
So since we won, we were able to get the Idol clue. Now the only people online at the time were myself Eric and Alex. We get on a group chat since we have the "three amigos" alliance and they found most of the shells. I was then able to find two that they didn't find but I didn't tell them. I tried so hard to just do it on my own but it was just too many freaking passwords so I didn't have a choice but to give them the other items. Once I did that, freaking Alex was able to find the damn Idol, he legit found it because of me and I am soooo bitter that I wasn't the one that found it. Anyway, like an idiot he goes and tell us BOTH that he got it. I was INSTANTLY annoyed but then again, what am I to expect?
I am going to take a quick detour to rant about Eric. I am sure Eric is a great person but IN THIS GAME, he irritates my SKIN. He is WORSE than ALY. I am not sure if he's just naturally always happy but that shit throws me off and it's TOO MUCH. like omg if ya'll were there, ya'll would had rolled ya'll eyes, I am sure. I didn't want him to know about the idol because at this rate, I don't know how much more I can fake to be happy with him or to laugh at his ridiculous jokes - even Alex at one point told him to stop like he just wouldn't shut up. Anyway so he knows about the idol and he has the audacity to say "guys we must keep this btw us" okay captain obvious. Ugh I need to slowly replace him in our alliance with Matthew because that's what the alliance should've been. After Eric leaves our trio call, myself and Alex are talking and he tells me how he regrets telling Eric. FOR me that was HUGE - I don't know if he was lying but it made me feel very comfortable and I told him I wish he didn't either but there's nothing we can do now. I hope I am not bugging but I do think I am his #1. Now it's just weird to be in this situation because I hate that I am hiding stuff from Matthew. I honestly wish I could just tell him everything but I wouldn't do Alex dirty like that and that could ruin my game.
In other news, getting rid of Miranda may be easier than I thought. I had passed the idea to Alex that if we were to lose, I would be fine with Miranda leaving. Matthew later told me how he had spoke to Alex and Alex had said that the easiest vote would be Miranda and THEN Alex told me that he had told Matthew that.I then told Matthew I would be fine with Miranda leaving as well and he said that he would too and that he doesn't care for her. I love that they're both being honest and telling me who they're talking to and what they're saying to other people. If I could I would get rid of Eric but I do think that will hurt my game and although I think he is so annoying, I think he will be loyal to Alex and I. I also am considering telling Alex that Miranda wants to form a final 3 - I am not sure if I will because I really don't want to be messy but I do trust him and now that I know his secret, him backstabbing me can bite him in the ass. I do want to tell him to make our trust even stronger, I need him to never doubt me because although he's holding that idol - In my head, is lowkey our idol and I do think that he would consider using it on me if needed.
I am going to end this with the usual; devoting my love for Matthew. LOL Honestly, he's just still the most amazing person here. I hope he doesn't get mad if he finds out I kept things for him. I think he is smart and sees I am very social - he's said two comments to demonstrate that. At one point he told me Alex really likes me based on the house call and then he also asked me If I had any other final 2s. I don't think he knows anything but he is very smart. However I am not worried about it at all, I think he knows where my loyalty fully lies with and that's with him. I am ensuring that we're both solid so me being so social, is a good thing for him.
Okay that is all <3
So we won the challenge last round which was no thanks to me. I honestly flopped so hard but I don't think I would've went home because of it. Anyway, Chris ended up leaving which kinda sucked because we lost a gay but it's fine.
So since we won, we were able to get the Idol clue. Now the only people online at the time were myself Eric and Alex. We get on a group chat since we have the "three amigos" alliance and they found most of the shells. I was then able to find two that they didn't find but I didn't tell them. I tried so hard to just do it on my own but it was just too many freaking passwords so I didn't have a choice but to give them the other items. Once I did that, freaking Alex was able to find the damn Idol, he legit found it because of me and I am soooo bitter that I wasn't the one that found it. Anyway, like an idiot he goes and tell us BOTH that he got it. I was INSTANTLY annoyed but then again, what am I to expect?
I am going to take a quick detour to rant about Eric. I am sure Eric is a great person but IN THIS GAME, he irritates my SKIN. He is WORSE than ALY. I am not sure if he's just naturally always happy but that shit throws me off and it's TOO MUCH. like omg if ya'll were there, ya'll would had rolled ya'll eyes, I am sure. I didn't want him to know about the idol because at this rate, I don't know how much more I can fake to be happy with him or to laugh at his ridiculous jokes - even Alex at one point told him to stop like he just wouldn't shut up. Anyway so he knows about the idol and he has the audacity to say "guys we must keep this btw us" okay captain obvious. Ugh I need to slowly replace him in our alliance with Matthew because that's what the alliance should've been. After Eric leaves our trio call, myself and Alex are talking and he tells me how he regrets telling Eric. FOR me that was HUGE - I don't know if he was lying but it made me feel very comfortable and I told him I wish he didn't either but there's nothing we can do now. I hope I am not bugging but I do think I am his #1. Now it's just weird to be in this situation because I hate that I am hiding stuff from Matthew. I honestly wish I could just tell him everything but I wouldn't do Alex dirty like that and that could ruin my game.
In other news, getting rid of Miranda may be easier than I thought. I had passed the idea to Alex that if we were to lose, I would be fine with Miranda leaving. Matthew later told me how he had spoke to Alex and Alex had said that the easiest vote would be Miranda and THEN Alex told me that he had told Matthew that.I then told Matthew I would be fine with Miranda leaving as well and he said that he would too and that he doesn't care for her. I love that they're both being honest and telling me who they're talking to and what they're saying to other people. If I could I would get rid of Eric but I do think that will hurt my game and although I think he is so annoying, I think he will be loyal to Alex and I. I also am considering telling Alex that Miranda wants to form a final 3 - I am not sure if I will because I really don't want to be messy but I do trust him and now that I know his secret, him backstabbing me can bite him in the ass. I do want to tell him to make our trust even stronger, I need him to never doubt me because although he's holding that idol - In my head, is lowkey our idol and I do think that he would consider using it on me if needed.
I am going to end this with the usual; devoting my love for Matthew. LOL Honestly, he's just still the most amazing person here. I hope he doesn't get mad if he finds out I kept things for him. I think he is smart and sees I am very social - he's said two comments to demonstrate that. At one point he told me Alex really likes me based on the house call and then he also asked me If I had any other final 2s. I don't think he knows anything but he is very smart. However I am not worried about it at all, I think he knows where my loyalty fully lies with and that's with him. I am ensuring that we're both solid so me being so social, is a good thing for him.
Okay that is all <3